HisWill HerLife: How it all started

HisWill_HerLife: Where did that come from?

It’s the beginning of the year, so I thought now is the perfect time to talk about why I started ‘HisWill_HerLife’ blog. Some of you may know me, others may not so let’s go back a little…

I grew up in the church as many of us did. My mom always made sure we were at church on Sundays and Wednesdays, youth choir (and no I cannot sing LOL ), youth drill team, “Hallelujah” night, praise dance team, testimony night, etc. Everything you could participate in, we were there.

Then I went off to college and the urge to get involved was still there. So, finding a church to attend and Christian events/groups was always something I felt drawn too. But life happens and we always want to do our own thing at some point, so we tend to follow those desires. Overall, I was always drawn to Christ, but I also liked doing my own thing too. Even now 🫠

But more than anything, I have always felt the love of God. No matter how far left or how far right I went, God has always pulled me back. The culture always sounds good in the moment, but once you see what’s out there, you realize, it’s really nothing. Or once you realize that what you are looking for can’t be found in the world, you come back to the one who created it!

I’ve learned and experienced things that I see now were apart of God’s perfect plan for my life. Some of those things were not the best, but they were necessary. (We will dig deeper later. 🙃) He was/is setting up the stage for all that He has for me, as He is for you as well.

If I had to describe my journey thus far, I would say it’s been very transitional. Within the last 3-4 years, it has really been a roller coaster ride. The Lord has been shifting, shedding, and supplementing things in me and around me. As comfortable as my life has looked on the outside, it has been very uncomfortable on the inside. Literally everything that seemed normal, began to feel uncomfortable and it’s like God was calling me to something greater than me. The shell that I was in, was starting to feel too small. I read in a book once that “tough faith never grows in an uncomfortable mind”. I began making some difficult decisions, the things that I once enjoyed, I began to dislike, I began stepping into new territory, stepping out on FAITH literally. Believing and trusting God, for all the things that he was showing me.

I began spending more and more time with God and in His word. God was beginning surgery on my heart. In order to be all who He had called me to be, there were a lot of things that needed to either be hydrated, nourished, or picked within me.

John 15:16 You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you that you should go and bear fruit and that your fruit should abide, so that whatever you ask the Father in my name, he may give it to you.

I wouldn’t say that I was always running from God, but I wasn’t making him my #1 or even #2 priority. But thankfully, he kept his eyes on me and is always waiting for me with open arms.

Colossians 1:21-22 Once you were alienated from God and were enemies in your minds because of your evil behavior. But now he has reconciled you by Christ’s physical body through death to present you holy in his sight, without blemish and free from accusation

We are so underserving but, yet he still loves us. Yet he still wants us. Yet he still wants to have a relationship with us. He still wants to be our Father. His love covers us and protects us.

So, with all the changes and growing, I knew I had to share this journey, because I know that our experiences are meant to be shared. We go through things so that others can grow through things. As God continues to show me more of Himself, I want to be as much of a light as possible in a dark world. So that’s when God dropped HisWill_HerLife into my heart.

But this blog, came with a lot of self-doubt, questioning, and pull-back. In the back of my mind, I was like “umm I don’t know about this God and let me tell you why  1. I’m still dealing with my own sinful ways 2. Lord your kids crazy……3. People are not trying to hear anything I have to say 4. God I’m an introvert!! And 5. The vision just seems like more than what I can do” And all those points are valid and normal. But God showed me that I’m just his vessel. With all of our flaws, we are still the perfect person for the purpose He has for us.

Ephesians 2:10 reads “For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.”

God knows everything about me. He created me. All he needed was my yes! The things that are the hardest for us to do, are usually the exact things God is calling us to. Not because He wants us to struggle, but because He wants us to depend on His strength. And He will do the rest. So nope, I won’t get it right every time, but that doesn’t change my yes. So every day I wake up, I chose to stick with Jesus. He is the realest! 💚